32 weeks and some updates

I will be 32 weeks this Saturday. I have been feeling good, I feel like it has come WAY too fast. Maybe the fact that I have a full schedule of events each day and 3 kids to train up has made me sort of forget I'm pregnant most of the time.

(Addison took this picture, so it is not the best, but for a 5 year old I think he did pretty good.)

I feel better then ever these last couple of weeks. I haven't had that "I'm ready for the baby to come now" anxiety yet like i seemed to have with the first three babies. I think you realize the longer they are in the womb the healthier they are and the more time you have to make sure you really are ready for this transition into having another child. I do get a little nervous from time to time when I have alot going on that this baby may come early. It makes me remember the scare we had with James when he came almost 6 weeks early unexpectedly...

He was not breathing. The room was silent expect for the shuffle of nurses and Dr. R rushing to save my baby and the cries of his mother from the bed. The anxiety was overwhelming and the feeling was unbearable. I was thankful that my mother in law and husband were by my side assuring me, when they finally spoke, that he was going to be ok. I was relieved when I heard his weak little cry from the bed next to mine. Dr. R rushed him to the nursery, this hospital did not have a NICU, it seemed like hours (but was probably only a short time) before Dr. R came back and said he was ok, but if anything changes they will have to rush him to a better hospital. The praises can only be to God that he never did have to leave that hospital, he was on oxygen for 4 days and left 5 days later from the hospital. His birth helped me to realize the importance of their little lives and how quickly things can change with a blink of an eye.

I remember this scene when I start getting close to my due date. I still have dreams that this will happen again and all I can do is pray that the Lord will give me a peace and remind me to be STILL and know that HE is God!!!

I did get my H1N1 vaccine. I debated it over and over again, but then I remember my little girl...

and how she caught Pertussis from my husband, who is allergic to the pertussis vaccine, and how my husband caught it from an unvaccinated child that he had been around. I remember how scary it was for us and how I truly feared for her life the day we headed to the hospital in an ambulance. I think of the stories of pregnant women dieing from the H1N1 virus and I think of how awful that would be if that was my family. So after much thought, prayer and debate with Adam we decided that I was the only one that NEEDED to get the vaccine at this time. So here I sit vaccinated.

Homeschooling is going better then I ever could have imagined it to go. I thought we would have a hard time getting into a good rythym, that the kids would say..."want to ride the school bus." or "I want to go to school with Daddy!" but we have had none of that. Although they do want to go to school with Daddy from time to time, it is only because they enjoy being aroudn him and enjoy the attention from his students and co-workers. I love that the Lord has given me patience, organization, and the will to get up and get the shcool books out each day. He truely has blessed us beyond anything I could have asked for. I am not the most creative person in the world, but the Lord has given me several great ideas on how to incoorperate learning with the zoo trip we took last month...

and how we will do the same for our Aquarium trip tomorrow. Addison is finishing up his series on fish, so i thought his would be the perfect ending to that series. I just feel so thankful for the things we are able to do and places we are bale to go and things we are able to learn.

We praise the Lord for all this goodness.